HOPE FOR THE PROMISCUOUS WOMAN – PART 1

Children of God, unbelievers, boys and girl, gather around as I tell the story of how The King of the Universe, in all His Glory descended from His throne to save my life. The operation was covert, the execution was meticulous, the tactic was ambush, the conquest was genius, this is the Royal Fairytale of how God stole my heart and ultimately my life.

There is deeper side of the story of how I came to Christ that most people do not know. It is an intimate and personal encounter that I had with God that sealed my surrender. If you will allow yourself to be taken on a journey, I will share this vulnerable moment with you. My hope is that through my transparency, truth and revelation, you will encounter CHRIST, THE KING HIMSELF.

The year was 2015, I was in a relationship with Mr. Great Guy (browse the Unmasking Series) for over two (2) years and in my estimation the love was on. We had promised forever to each other and I knew it was just a matter of time before he would pop the question. We were in love. I was the thirsty bride to be waiting to claim that ring like a price, a symbol of his love and devotion to me. I was waiting with baited breath, but somehow, that question that most woman want to hear was not forthcoming from his lips. Before very long, I realized that there was a stall in my plans. Forever it seemed, was delayed.

With the reality of this starting me in the face, I began to weigh my options. I mean, what else was a woman to do? It felt like rejection and in fact it was. In my mind, it was not that hard a math problem to solve, I loved him and he loved me, forever should be easy, or so I thought. In any event, the delay broke my heart in a way that just felt like I was not what he wanted. So, I started to look outside of my relationship to soothe the wounds of my broken heart.

It was so funny that this was happening to me because in my mind, I should be a man’s first choice, I’m a 10/10 kind of a woman, how could this happen to me? I was supposed to be the kind of woman a man should gladly walk away from everyone to be with, yet, here I was trying to “figure out” why the love of my life won’t marry me. Doesn’t he know who I am? Really? I wanted to play the “I can do bad all by myself” card but I couldn’t because I loved him and I really wanted him. So, instead of being alone, I went back to my old nature, the promiscuous woman I was used to being in the past.  This time though, it was different. I was not yearning for another man so much anymore, I was yearning for a love that I was searching for in him but couldn’t find. The best way I can explain it is this, it felt like my heart was tired and weary and I just wanted somewhere to lay it down to rest. It felt like the battle of the love affairs and romances over the years wore me out and I was shattered.

I wanted to feel butterflies and romance, I wanted to be that special someone to someone who would treat me like I was a queen, their queen. Someone who would be sure about me and not be afraid to commit. In the relationship I was in, I was asking for too much.

HOPE FOR THE PROMISCUOUS WOMAN – PART 2

Well, this may surprise you but, while searching for this love, I met God. You see, God knew me, He
knew that I lived for the next adventure and the thrill, but He (God) needed an opportunity to get my
full attention, well, ladies and gentlemen, this was it. What I thought was rejection, was God setting the
stage for His own agenda to unfold. God knew, that to get my attention, He had to do something grand
because I was that kind of a woman, I was intrigued by the pursuit and the attention, this was my flaw.
That mindset got me in trouble with men many times.

BUT GOD KNEW, IF HE MADE ME AN OFFER I COULD NOT REFUSE, I WOULD ACCEPT IT, IT WAS THE
NATURE OF MY PROMISCUOUS HEART. SO, HE PURSUED ME.

God was not afraid to accept the challenge that was in my heart, He extended an invitation to me, He
invited me to get to know Him. He began to intrigue me by revealing himself to me through His word
and most of all His presence. So, I began cheating on my ex with God. I would sneak away to go seek His
presence. I remember hurrying home from work to spend time with God. I felt such peace and joy. I
would literally cut my time on the phone with my ex short to go sit in silence before the Lord. And no
time in His presence felt enough. The more I sought Him, the more I wanted to seek Him. It was like
nothing I have ever encountered before. Me and God in a bedroom talking, laughing, bonding. I was in
love.

To the natural man, this may seem weird, but ladies and gentlemen, like the woman at the well, to me
(Debra), it was the deliverance of my soul. I never imagined how serious God was about saving my life. I
mean, this is God, He knew my weakness, he knew the filthiness of my heart, I was a woman who lived
for the joyride of a good intrigue and so God did what no one else could do, He used the thorn that was
meant to destroy me to save my soul.

There are so many times when we believe that the salvation of others is our responsibility, ofcourse, we
all have a part to play in God’s divine plan of how we surrender to Him, but at the end of the day, it’s
God’s plan.

God used my promiscuity, my unfaithfulness and my adulterous heart to save me. He relied on the very
sin nature that probably would have led to my death to bring forth life. How much more can He do for
you? By the time I began taking an interest in God, I began to fall in love with Him through His word and
His hand on my life. In early 2016, He asked me to choose between my boyfriend and Him and well, you
know how that story ended.

The purpose of me sharing this story is not just to tell you something intimate about my life, I want to
show the divine awesomeness of the KING I LIVE FOR. That Christ would take an interest in a woman
with a heart like mine and dwell in my body sometimes seems unreal to me, it really does. But it speaks
volumes about the depth of His love for us.

Whatever it is that you believe will keep you away from God believe me, it is an intrigue for Him. God is
not in the slightest way disturbed by your bondage, brokenness or chains. He welcomes them because
He is mighty to save. I believe He lives for those moments of uncommon deliverance where His Name
will be glorified. I hope this will encourage you to know that the saving of your soul is a work of the spirit
and it is God who does the work, all we need is a desire to be set free and a heart of surrender.